“There is nothing to writing all you have to do is sit down and bleed”, Ernest Hemingway
My writer’s block has been a constant cloudy vision in my way the last few months and there has been a lot of travel and socializing to add to all of the distractions I have as a writer. I am constantly searching, and planning for something I am inspired to write about on my blog to share with others. I did write a little something to share about my feelings and my relationship history with my mother on Mother’s Day but I ended up filing it away with all of the other documents sitting in my mac air book. I had fear that although the words were finally flowing I would end up hurting someone as I was bleeding thoughts from my heart. I was scared of judgments, I was fearful of being revealed, but worst of all I feel like it wasn’t coming from a completely good place. All of this noise around what I wrote stopped me from pushing publish on my blog page. I consider my blog a safe place, a haven dedicated to my story, and my life’s journey that I am trying to tell. This week when trying to decide what the perfect present would be for the perfect boyfriend it also dawned on me that I needed to be writing about something I was confident about sharing. It is easy for me to share my thoughts about one of the most important people in my life, my sweet love Geoffrey. Forget all the reason’s I can’t share or shouldn’t share I just needed writing inspiration that I was completely confident in other’s reading. After being mindful of what was getting in my way I knew my next writing project would be successful because it is coming from a loving, positive, and happy place.
First I asked myself what about my journey to finding love right now would resonate with others? Why would anyone even give a shit what I have been through and what I have overcome? Who is my audience? What am I trying to accomplish with them reading what I share? It would resonate with them because I believe that everyone loves love. If they do not, I think it is because they need more of it. I have chosen to write about meeting Geoffrey this summer and how he has changed my life because for years I have been searching for love. Since I was a little girl I always craved more of it and never felt confident that I was worthy of it fully. I struggled with being comfortable in my own skin and let my unique quirks and weaknesses overcome whom I was. I was building strong, tall walls around my heart and staying in relationships that were obviously not healthy. Geoffrey has made me a believer in love again and has also sparked the inspiration I needed to continue to follow my own dreams. I was never a person someone took relationship advice from but I have always been taking mental notes after every failed relationship what I dreamed true love would feel like to me. If I didn’t find it necessary to listen to that little voice in my head (that little roommate we all have but don’t always listen to) I would not of found the best love of my life. Since I started dating Geoffrey I have found that one of his favorite things in the world are my blog posts. He has read every damn one. He recites them to me randomly in conversation or quotes me out of the blue. It’s one of the most touching things anyone has ever done for me and it is the exact inspiration I need to motivate my block. For Geoffrey’s birthday I am making a promise to write about him and to write about us. If it is one person who resonates to our story or ten, I truly hope that I inspire them to never settle. I wish that by sharing with you a little about what love means to me because of Geoffrey it would inspire you to find a sweet love of your own.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!
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